It has been a few months. Time is funny, fleeting one moment and unbearably slow the next. The weather has changed where I am; more blue skies and sunshine always help me find my words. I haven’t had many questions the past few months. It’s unusual for me, so it has felt strange. But today, … Continue reading How to Love
Limits
***Trigger warning for a bit of gory image*** When I was little, I loved going on the swings. That feeling of rising, holding your breath as you anticipate getting to the peak, and then the thrill of coming down after leaving your heart at the top. It was magic. My friends and I used to … Continue reading Limits
Remember You
I had the most wonderful conversation with two friends who are artists in their own rights. I am moved by how much growth women around me have achieved at this point in our lives. It's palpable and visceral and makes me soar. I feel so proud to be a woman. But that's for another blog … Continue reading Remember You
Our Own
Sometimes, I like being up when it's way too early for anyone to be awake. The sun is peaking through the horizon, just starting to clear out the evening fog. You are in a vacuum with your thoughts and feelings. And there is nothing more soothing than knowing that this time is just for you. … Continue reading Our Own
Into the Unknown
Lately, many worlds have converged and interconnected so I have the urge to note this down. And where else to do this than this special corner of the internet where I spill my thoughts? I've been reading this book called the Perspectives of Psychiatry by Paul McHugh and Phillip Slanvey. It's about how we ignore … Continue reading Into the Unknown
FTL – Finally to Launch!
To my few, dedicated readers here, I am so grateful for you following me through my psychiatry training journey. I've been in practice as an attending for over a year now, and it has been an amazing mix of frustration and fun! With the help of wonderful colleagues and supports around me, I've launched a … Continue reading FTL – Finally to Launch!
Amae
I spent a good portion of my early childhood in Japan. It was a time filled with wonder, solitude, and so much beauty. I used to go to this park and find the coolest bugs and stones. Then there was this tiny store owned by an elderly couple up the street, where I'd go to … Continue reading Amae
Change
Today I learned a Chinese proverb from my mom. She rarely shares Chinese proverbs with me, but this one seemed important. She said, "万事起头难," which means, "Everything is hard in the beginning." She talked about how bearing the burden now will pay off later, and that time always makes things easier. I guess mothers always … Continue reading Change
High Tide
You know that saying "getting swept off your feet"? I wonder why it's portrayed as romantic and positive in modern English. It does not sound pleasant, and whenever I hear it, it makes me shudder. I think it's the worst feeling in the world to feel like the sand beneath you is slipping away as … Continue reading High Tide
Looking Back, with Love
It is done. I have graduated from child psychiatry fellowship. What did I learn? There are only two concepts that stand out to me from my training: we need caregivers that believe in us, and caregivers that don’t use us to fulfill their own needs. Just like that. Everything else just has to be good … Continue reading Looking Back, with Love
The Good Enough Psychiatrist 