It's funny that positive feelings can be just as unexpected as the negative ones. Today, I felt a deep sense of gratitude that wrapped me up like a blanket. There are no guarantees in life, and lately I have been having so many moments of overwhelming rapture. It’s like watching a bonfire by the ocean, … Continue reading Blowing on the Embers
For the Child
Recently, I was able to take a break from work and collect the scattered pieces of myself back into a presentable form. I spent most of my vacation lounging by the beach, eating, sleeping, reading, drawing, and most importantly, doing absolutely nothing. In this space of connecting back to my inner self, I thought a … Continue reading For the Child
The Pain of Fathers
If you knew me a year ago, you would never have imagined that I would write a blog post with a title like this. Fathers, "the other" parent, have always been a difficult topic for me. It's the proverbial "daddy issues" that gets slapped on the backs of women who struggle with interpersonal relationships, reducing … Continue reading The Pain of Fathers
The Art of Families
Last month, I started my rotation in family therapy and boy, has it turned my whole world upside down. Just when I thought I had a handle on this whole therapy thing, family therapy comes along, whacks me in the head and says, "Try again." I'm exaggerating. Maybe. There are fundamental concepts from individual psychotherapy … Continue reading The Art of Families
The Best People in the World
I have to record my thoughts as I am so full of gratitude, and a little bit of melancholy. Today, my friends from my fellowship and I went on a little road trip. We had awesome cinnamon rolls and coffee, window-shopped, had dumplings for dinner and the best part of all, met one of our … Continue reading The Best People in the World
Stillness
There is a warm softness in finding space to be still. I often notice how much I need this space a little too late. I guess it speaks to how much is buried in the unconscious. Recently, I've been exposing myself to a lot of psychodynamic works, and have been obsessed with listening to a … Continue reading Stillness
People that Surround You
It's incredible what a few words from someone you trust can do for you. Recently, I have been feeling disjointed at work. These highly structured and manualized therapies I'm learning about feel artificial, unnatural, and superficial at best. Something is missing in these treatments and I think it has something to do with connection. There … Continue reading People that Surround You
Reflecting on DBT and Mindfulness
As I begin my second year of child fellowship training, we have started a deep dive into dialectical behavioral therapy (DBT) in our didactics series. This therapy is so intriguing to me, because it borrows concepts from Eastern philosophy and brings me newfound appreciation for my own cultural background. First and foremost, at the core … Continue reading Reflecting on DBT and Mindfulness
Processing
Once again, I do not know where the time goes. I blink my eyes and suddenly it's June. And yet I feel like I've been a first year fellow forever. I finished my 4-month inpatient child and adolescent rotation at the end of April, and it took me a whole month to recover. I’ve finally … Continue reading Processing
Catch Up
The last few months have flown by. I've been running around most days trying to play catch up with everything that has to be done. I live hour to hour because every moment has so much packed into it. I don't actually mind this, and in fact, I love it. I've always been the one … Continue reading Catch Up
The Good Enough Psychiatrist 